it’s been a long time coming…..

So I am back to try and start blogging again…I am getting kind of tired of starting and then stopping again and again…so here goes nothing.

So I am about half way through my first summer field placement. things have been interesting and have helped me to start to understand the complex nature of ministry, theology, and pastoral care. I know I am going to be a better minister because of this experience.

I am planning on posting this week with some depth about what I have been doing that has furthered my understanding of ministry. Tonight I will be working on my Sunday school lesson for tomorrow morning.

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Devotional-Psalm 9

Psalm 9

Psalm 9[a][b]

For the director of music. To the tune of “The Death of the Son.” A psalm of David.

1 I will give thanks to you, LORD, with all my heart;
I will tell of all your wonderful deeds.
2 I will be glad and rejoice in you;
I will sing the praises of your name, O Most High.

3 My enemies turn back;
they stumble and perish before you.
4 For you have upheld my right and my cause,
sitting enthroned as the righteous judge.
5 You have rebuked the nations and destroyed the wicked;
you have blotted out their name for ever and ever.
6 Endless ruin has overtaken my enemies,
you have uprooted their cities;
even the memory of them has perished.

7 The LORD reigns forever;
he has established his throne for judgment.
8 He rules the world in righteousness
and judges the peoples with equity.
9 The LORD is a refuge for the oppressed,
a stronghold in times of trouble.
10 Those who know your name trust in you,
for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.

11 Sing the praises of the LORD, enthroned in Zion;
proclaim among the nations what he has done.
12 For he who avenges blood remembers;
he does not ignore the cries of the afflicted.

13 LORD, see how my enemies persecute me!
Have mercy and lift me up from the gates of death,
14 that I may declare your praises
in the gates of Daughter Zion,
and there rejoice in your salvation.

15 The nations have fallen into the pit they have dug;
their feet are caught in the net they have hidden.
16 The LORD is known by his acts of justice;
the wicked are ensnared by the work of their hands.[c]
17 The wicked go down to the realm of the dead,
all the nations that forget God.
18 But God will never forget the needy;
the hope of the afflicted will never perish.

19 Arise, LORD, do not let mortals triumph;
let the nations be judged in your presence.
20 Strike them with terror, LORD;
let the nations know they are only mortal.

As I read this Psalm I am struck by the pattern that it seems to follow. It is a Psalm of praise that retells the story of a struggle that the Psalmist is going through.  It takes the time to follow the pattern of praise then remembrance of the struggle and then praise again. It focuses on the protective and sovereignty aspects of God’s redeeming power.

This Psalm reminds me that no matter what I am going through God will work on my behalf to save and support me. When I have faith He will come and rescue me. He is my rock and my shield.

What do you think? leave a comment and let everyone know…..

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bad scheduler strikes again.

So I have missed two days of devotionals this week because of my lack of …or maybe ignorance of the amount of reading and writing I have to do this semester. so I am not going to quit doing devotionals on here. I just need to get some work done so I can get back to it. the goal for this weekend is going to be write two papers if not three. that will put me leaps and bounds ahead of the game. I also need to start reading some of my books for Readings in World Christianity. So I am hoping to post a few reviews of the books on here. I also have picked two books to take out in the next month. I am planning on reading an NT Wright book and a Mark batterson book….so expect to see a review of each one.

on a side note I was thinking about this writing project that I am working on. I have just begun the research phase but I think I should be posting thoughts on the topic. that will hopefully keep me on track with it. so soon a regular post series will begin titled the art of suffering. so be on the look out and give me some feedback when you can.

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Devotional-Psalm 8

Psalm 8[a]

For the director of music. According to gittith.[b] A psalm of David. 1 LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth! You have set your glory in the heavens. 2 Through the praise of children and infants you have established a stronghold against your enemies, to silence the foe and the avenger. 3 When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, 4 what is mankind that you are mindful of them, human beings that you care for them?[c] 5 You have made them[d] a little lower than the angels[e] and crowned them[f] with glory and honor. 6 You made them rulers over the works of your hands; you put everything under their[g] feet: 7 all flocks and herds, and the animals of the wild, 8 the birds in the sky, and the fish in the sea, all that swim the paths of the seas. 9 LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth!

This is a Psalm of praise. David starts off in the first half giving glory to god for his creative and powerful hand. Verse 2 focuses on God’s protective power. David is reminding us that there is strength and protection that God provides for us. He is our refuge and our hope.

Verse 3 focuses on God’s creative power over all of creation. The Psalmist is asserting that God created everything by showing that the heavens were placed by Him.

Verse 4 is an assertion of God’s power over man. By our logic man is at the top of the pyramid when it comes to authority over all created things. The Psalmist seeks to point out that God is at the top of the pyramid and not us.

Verses 5-8 are reflections of 1-4. Each verse echoes it’s counter part by reminding the readers of God’s attributes and man’s placement in the grand scheme of authority and power.

Each of these verses show us that God can protect us. They are lines in a hymn of praise to God. It’s Psalms like this one that helps remind me of God’s abilities to save me and also form me into His likeness.

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Devotional- Psalm 7

Psalm 7[a]

shiggaion[b] of David, which he sang to the LORD concerning Cush, a Benjamite.

1 LORD my God, I take refuge in you;
save and deliver me from all who pursue me,
2 or they will tear me apart like a lion
and rip me to pieces with no one to rescue me.

3 LORD my God, if I have done this
and there is guilt on my hands—
4 if I have repaid my ally with evil
or without cause have robbed my foe—
5 then let my enemy pursue and overtake me;
let him trample my life to the ground
and make me sleep in the dust.[c]

6 Arise, LORD, in your anger;
rise up against the rage of my enemies.
Awake, my God; decree justice.
7 Let the assembled peoples gather around you,
while you sit enthroned over them on high.
8 Let the LORD judge the peoples.
Vindicate me, LORD, according to my righteousness,
according to my integrity, O Most High.
9 Bring to an end the violence of the wicked
and make the righteous secure—
you, the righteous God
who probes minds and hearts.

10 My shield[d] is God Most High,
who saves the upright in heart.
11 God is a righteous judge,
a God who displays his wrath every day.
12 If he does not relent,
he[e] will sharpen his sword;
he will bend and string his bow.
13 He has prepared his deadly weapons;
he makes ready his flaming arrows.

14 Whoever is pregnant with evil
conceives trouble and gives birth to disillusionment.
15 Whoever digs a hole and scoops it out
falls into the pit they have made.
16 The trouble they cause recoils on them;
their violence comes down on their own heads.

17 I will give thanks to the LORD because of his righteousness;
I will sing the praises of the name of the LORD Most High.

There are times in our lives when we feel like all the world is against us. We have done nothing wrong to deserve all the bad things that are coming our way. It feels like everyone is out to get us and we are backed into a corner.

we have all felt like this in some way or another in our lives. It may be that someone stole the girl you liked or that job you applied for was given to someone less capable of it. It feels like someone is out to get you. We feel like evil is all around holding us back. These times come as a test to see where we are in our spiritual life. It is in these times that character becomes important. David does two things here that seem very important to me.

First he puts the focus on God being his salvation in this time in verses 1 and 2. He uses the images of someone preparing for war to put a perspective on who could actually change this situation. Second he repents of anything he might have done. He wants to make sure that he has not caused this through sin. If it is brought about by his sin then he wants to make amends right away in verses 3-5.  Now there is more in this passage but I feel like these two points directly influence the rest of the passage. These are the only two actions that David can perform, everything else is done by God.

So this begs the question……”Am I following this model when I am feeling oppressed?” Do we run to God and repent to make sure that in our ignorance we have not been the root cause of this problem? I know that I don’t do this enough. I struggle with taking refuge because I want to be independent and self-sufficient. Because of this I tend to become prideful and ignorant of what part I might have played in the cause of this problem. Seems like we could all use a little more refuge and repentance and maybe just maybe we will be lucky enough to receive help from god in finding ways to end our problems and oppressions (depending on what the situation might be).

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Devotionals- Psalm 6

So I am starting off my resolutions with a bang here. I am planning on posting my devotional verses with some thoughts that reflect what I am thinking and feeling after I read it.

So here goes the first post of an actually series. and please feel free to leave a comment on here so that I know people actually read this blog. It makes a writer feel special.

Psalm 6

1 LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger
or discipline me in your wrath.
2 Have mercy on me, LORD, for I am faint;
heal me, LORD, for my bones are in agony.
3 My soul is in deep anguish.
How long, LORD, how long?

4 Turn, LORD, and deliver me;
save me because of your unfailing love.
5 Among the dead no one proclaims your name.
Who praises you from the grave?

6 I am worn out from my groaning.

All night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears.
7 My eyes grow weak with sorrow;
they fail because of all my foes.

8 Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the LORD has heard my weeping.
9 The LORD has heard my cry for mercy;
the LORD accepts my prayer.
10 All my enemies will be overwhelmed with shame and anguish;
they will turn back and suddenly be put to shame.

David is writing this Psalm as he is suffering. He is crying out to god asking for God’s intervening hand to come and save him from the suffering that he believes he has received by sinning. Suffering seems to be a common theme in the psalms. There are Psalms of suffering, of praise over the deliverance from suffering, and cries asking for the coming suffering to be prevented. So what does this Psalm tell us about suffering? What can I learn from reading this and thinking about who I am in this story.

I could be David, crying out because I am in agony over a decision or because I am physically/ emotionally/ relationally sick from things I have done; and like David I need to appeal to a higher power. I need to seek deliverance through the direction that God sends me. How many times have I sought to heal my suffering through waiting it out and not crying it out to God? How many times have I shown a lack of faith and not asked for God’s hand to be placed upon me and cause healing inside?

The Matthew Henry Commentary says that David can bear the suffering more if he knows that God is with him through it. That’s a beautiful statement. He is not asking to be miraculousness healed and protected but just to not be alone or separated from God in this time.

That is something that we can all look to do more of. Not to try and end our suffering, but to look and see that we don’t have to be alone in suffering. This gives us a clue to what the purpose of suffering might be. I have an idea…but I want to know what you think. post a comment below and lets get a discussion going.

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New Year and a new me.

So I haven’t been as faithful as I wanted to be when it came to updating my blog. I realize that almost no one read this or if they do the rarely comment. so in a effort to help my self I have made a few goals for this year to give improvement to a few areas of my life.

Mind:

1. I am going to have all my assignments and readings done before the due date. I can revise if I need to but I must have everything written and 90% read before the due dates this semester.

2. I need to read one non school book a month. I am hoping to use the books for blogger’s programs that I have found to get free books and publish some reviews on them.

3. I am going to try and finish my research for the book I am working on by the end of the summer. this is going to be hard but if I can do it I will be ahead and begin to be able to write the opening chapters.

Body:

1. I am starting Physiotherapy for my knees next week.

2. I am planning on running in the great human race in Durham in march as a warm up for another race.

3. I am running the Rugged Maniac in Greensboro in April to raise money for charity and get into shape.

4. I am working to lose 40 pounds this year and be back in shape.

Soul:

1. I am going to implement a new reading schedule for attempting to read the entire bible in a year. possibly going to use the one year bible reading plan for that.

2. I am going to set aside a time and place for quiet reflection and prayer each day. this will also force me to schedule my time better.

3. I am going to work to expand my partnership in some on campus ministries and begin to get active in Duke life. the goal here is a leave an impact and develop some effective ministry tools that can help those working on campus.

Relational:

1. one date night per week with my wife. we have let this get out of hand and I want to get this going again.

2. one hangout night a week with friends. this could also be during the day.

3. begin some public dialogues that will allow me to meet new people and develop new relationships.

These are just some of my goals….what are some of yours?

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Update on what’s going on in my life

My first semester of being a full-time student five years since I finished my undergrad degree is now officially coming to a close.

I have finished one exam (C.S. Lewis course) and I am studying for one that is coming up on Monday (Church history) and then I will be working on the one that is Wednesday (Old Testament). life is stressful now but not overwhelmingly stressful. I just have a lot of information in my brain and I have to put more in it. after wednesday is over I will write another update letting all of my lovely readers….well anyone who might happen to stop by…….. what classes I am taking next semester and who is teaching them.

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North Carolina, Virginia, West Virgina, Pennsylvania, New York, Ontario and Back……….

So I thought I would give a little update here on what’s been happening since reading week.  Reading week (for all those who don’t know) is just another week long break, except you have a pile of reading to do so that you aren’t behind. It is important in your Divinity School survival to make sure you get a large amount of reading done over that week. It should not be used lightly. It must be planned out and executed very effectively. This means that you won’t slack off and you will get everything and more accomplished like a good Duke Divinity School student.

Now that I have finished toting the party line…..Reading week is really just one of two spring breaks that you get each semester. It is a time to catch your breath and put down the books for a day or two. Yes, you still need to get your work done but you don’t have to stress. There are no classes during reading weeks and we all get to smile. I am pretty sure world peace happens twice a semester, it’s called reading week. There are rainbows and bunnies and nothing bad happens.

So now onto the important stuff of what I did/ did not do for reading week:

-I drove to Wiarton, Ontario with my wonderfully amazing wife and went to a wedding.

-I drove back from Canada to NC.

-I wrote a lecture for my CS Lewis class on the interstates and in a coffee shop.

-I went to a wedding and danced up a storm. (I am pretty sure that I am better than Michael Flatley now.)

-I did not get much rest. We were pretty busy the whole time. Having a blast with people and getting work done.

-I did not get nearly enough work done. It is time I confess I am losing motivation…and reading week did not help.

-I did realize that I rock. This was confirmed when one of Ann’s friends from college said I rocked.

Oh and I drove a lot.

There you go. That’s your update for right now. I am going to start working on a post to be made soon on some intellectual things like plants vs. zombies or the image of God inside us…these things are not mutually exclusive. oh and I am announcing here first that I will be attending the 4th annual Zombie lurch in Durham this year….I don’t know what it is but I am going to it. It will rock since there are zombies there!!!!

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more time than I know what to do with…..

That’s how I have felt over the past week, since dropping Hebrew. I know that things are catching up with me. I have two books to read in the next two weeks, one lecture to write and give the Tuesday after “reading week” (AKA drive to Canada and watch an awesome wedding while chilling with friends and in-laws (aka hide in the room and read like a nerd time)) and finally two weeks after “reading week” ends I have my second church history paper to turn in. there is a slight chance that the last paper could be moved back a week.

I am halfway through the first semester as a degree seeking student. I have a lot of work and yet not much too actually turn in. so I have decided that I will write more…..I must write more. Hopefully I will have people who actually read this blog again and my writing will improve. I am thinking about “hiring” an editor to check over these posts before they get published. It might make me look more important and sound better. by hire I mean ask Amy Williamson to do it for free and promise her that I will one day pay her to be my editor and share in the profits of my books sales (she would get around 1 penny from that deal).

I think I have decided who my mentor will be, even though he suggested two other people to be my mentors. I think I am just going to make him do it even if he keeps trying to pass me off. I have begun to understand the importance of having a mentor. In light of this I am going to work to be even more open and formed by what happens here.

I have also decided that Chapel is more important that I thought. There are three possible chapel days each week and I plan on attending at least one a week. These are important times that all students should take to center their thoughts, hearts and minds back to the one who has drawn us here. I have been uncentered for the past few weeks and I think that missing all the chapel opportunities have contributed to that more than I realized.

With that also means I will be spending more time in prayer and scripture. I have a goal to start reading Scripture more and taking closer notes on what I am reading rather than just mindlessly blowing through it all. I have been discovering the importance of having a public faith rather than a private one. So I am shinning some light on it through the spiritual practices that I have been quietly doing behind the scenes.

So I have babbled enough now. Have a great week and keep your chins up faithful reader(s).

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